I have never changed my personality, trust me, I will prove it.
Or maybe I am not, maybe I have changed.
But did I?
But I know I am still me, I will prove it to you.
You have to trust me, and I know you will trust me
I hope that you can read this and understand me and all my wishes

Good Luck ^^

God will bless you, all will be alright, don't worry.
No more worry, no more doubt @@

Nothing can bring you happiness but yourself

"Nothing can bring you happiness but yourself." 'Ralph Waldo Emerson

You've heard it before, "Happiness comes from within." No truer words have ever been spoken but the reality is most people seek happiness outside of themselves. They look for some thing or some person to bring them happiness. They wait for a certain event or milestone to occur in their lives and that is when they will be happy.

When I get a house, when I sell this house, when I graduate, when I lose weight, when I change jobs, when I get divorced, when I find someone, when I get my promotion, when I do this and that and everything else, THEN I will be happy.

But people will come and go, possessions will get old and everything always changes so how can you hold onto this fleeting happiness? Why not find real happiness, the kind that is eternal and the kind that no one can take from you?

And the good news is you already possess it. It is inherent in your soul. You don't have to go and get it or get anything to have it. You only have to find it, to tap into it and begin to enjoy it.

That happiness comes to you by starting from where you are right at this moment in life. Not some time "when" and "if" something happens. By valuing what you already have, by truly appreciating what is right in front of you and learning to be grateful for everything you are and have is when you will begin to experience happiness.

As cliche as it sounds, this moment is all you really have. So why put your life on hold waiting for some one or some thing to make you whole or bring you happiness when all you have to do is open your eyes and look around you?

Seeking fulfillment through others and by acquiring possessions is like chasing the proverbial pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. It isn't just about attaining something. It is all about enjoying the journey along the way while reaching your destination.

When you only find happiness at the end of the road toward some achievement it will be a long road in between and instead of experiencing the constant peace and love that is inside you, you will lose sight of the greatest gift you own.

Your beliefs and thoughts are the only thing standing in your way to experiencing living for the moment. Learn how to detach yourself from the outcome and enjoy the ride to wherever it is you want to go or whatever it is you want to have.

Remember, more time is spent on the road to achieving our goals and the second we accomplish them we are on to the next one or next person.

So doesn't it make sense to figure out how to tap into your internal joy and not rely on external events to supply you with it? You'll spend a lot more of your life living happy instead of always looking for it. It's your choice!

没那么简单

沒那麼簡單 就能找到 聊得來的伴
尤其是在 看過了那麼多的背叛
總是不安 只好強悍
誰謀殺了我的浪漫

沒那麼簡單 就能去愛 別的全不看
變得實際 也許好也許壞各一半
不愛孤單 一久也習慣
不用擔心誰 也不用被誰管

感覺快樂就忙東忙西
感覺累了就放空自己
別人說的話 隨便聽一聽 自己作決定
不想擁有太多情緒
一杯紅酒配電影
在周末晚上 關上了手機 舒服窩在沙發裡

相愛沒有那麼容易 每個人有他的脾氣
過了愛作夢的年紀 轟轟烈烈不如平靜
幸福沒有那麼容易 才會特別讓人著迷
什麼都不懂的年紀
曾經最掏心 所以最開心 曾經

想念最傷心 但卻最動心 的記憶

1st post of April( to Miss Chee)

Suang Jing said that after she has backed from NS and I didn't update my blog, she want to read it, so this is for u, but actually I have nothing to write ^ ^


1st of April, went countdown for Leroy's birthday with another 10 persons. OMG, the cake that Hong Khai, Hui Yen and I bought for Leroy is spoilage by the waiter, I think they didn't keep it in the refrigerator, it melt.

2nd of April, Leroy's birthday. Went lunch with Leroy, Carol, Suang Jing, Yao Hong, Hong Khai at Great Eastern Mall. OMG, Yao Hong and I have ordered a non delicious meal. After that, we went to Yao Hong's house, my 1st time to her house.


3rd of April, I back to my work as a P1 promoter for 1 week to train a new guy there, but I felt regret that the decision that I have made to work again, it is quite bored to stay at there for the whole day, nothing to do, I don't know why Leroy can stay there for 2 months consecutive. I have my dinner with Li Ping (don't know whether it is consider as dinner or not ^^) and that time I met TOYS( Yi & Li) at the food court, is long time that I didn't see them, is happy to met them there, although it is only a short time. Woo~ kah mun came to my counter and she look for Leroy, haiz...unfortunately, Leroy is not there.

There were 8 more days to Langkawi, I like travel, but I do not travel oftentimes, so that I like to join the trip with my friends. I am going to buy chocolate for best friends TOYS, kai, des and my auntie. In other case, it is annoying, the newspaper has written that, H1N1 is appeared at the island which near Langkawi. Worrying...


Suang Jing, I have already written my blog here, my 1st post for you ^ ^

第二个星期

时间一滴一滴地流走，

很快的，来到第二个星期了，没有工作的第二个星期。

很快的，来到了月尾，仅剩区区的7天就搭入4月份了。

刚刚收到了益进的信息，搞到我都不懂要写什么了。

他妈的，又不懂说什么屁话了。

昨天说好这个月尾一定会出薪水给我们的，

今天就得知没薪水出了。

你妈妈的啊，我从来都没试过这样~

2010的第一次

17/3，2010年的第一次生病，很辛苦，至我懂事以来，第二次这样辛苦，头很痛，很晕，整身痛，没力气。然后去看医生，哇，烧到40度，我跟医生讲我的腰部很痛，他说那个是肾，大概是我喝不够水。整天都很头晕，很痛。

离tar college 的报名截止日期不远了，还犹豫不决，不懂要mechanical 还是mechatronic。其实我想读两课，第一是engineering，第二是accounting，但读不来。

没有工作的日子真闷，但很轻松，第一次打这样的工就遇上这样的问题，够糟。

2nd week of march, I m still waiting

Woo, I woke up at 7.30am today, and I go out at 7.45am to Kajang and arrived there by 9.45am. I took 15 minutes walk to Plaza Metro Kajang from KTM, it is really feels warm for a P1 promoter who wearing a black uniform and exposed to sunlight, deng deng~ sweating~ OMG, it is warmest at 5pm, I have got to walk from Plaza Metro Kajang to KTM, spent another 15minutes under the blaze of sunlight, fuyoh, syok lor~ But already enjoyed the cool condition in the plaza, not bad too~

Actually my boss wanted to put me in kajang and selayang mall during this month is not such a bad news for me, because I have got to rush there and back, and I got no more time for me to think a lot, I have felt better now, is a good news for me, hope this will remain continuously through the end. Actually I am still waiting for miracle, although I know there won't be, but I am still waiting~

Another week has gone, it comes to 2nd week of March, they still haven't pay ours salary, by right they have got to pay us before 7th for every month, so we are waiting, we have been waiting for around 2 months, and the answers that I always get from them is "I will gao dim for you", " is disposing".

TOYS birthday is coming soon, dunno what presents I going to give them, haiz...

SPM result is coming out soon also, 2 more days

Another 2 places

5th of March, my boss drove me to Balakong's Econsave, OMG, I don't like that place. I spent 2 hours at there for setting up, then my boss bought me and my colleague MARIGOLD PEEL FRESH WHITE GRAPE ALOE VERA. After all, she drove me to Kajang, then she asked my colleague to buy me Kajang's satay, haha, not bad. Unfortunately, it rained  heavily around 3.30pm, I have got to leave at 4pm, but the rain is quite heavily, so I stayed for another 15 minutes, then i took taxi to KTM, Kajang cost me RM5. WTF, spent another 30++ minutes to wait for the train. From kajang KTM to Wangsa Maju LRT took me more than 2 hours

3月的第一天

3月的第一天又过了，时间真的流得很快，但人的脚步很慢~

明天要去跟一个老板interview，有些紧张，不懂过后会有什么事发生，会是被brandon和我的老板骂还是会顺顺利利地离开呢? 但最近公司好像很多事这样，这样一走了之好像很衰。如果进了那间公司可能被调到很远的地方去，可能很少机会跟朋友见面了，到底值不值得呢?

这个星期老板要派我去selayang mall，那边是top sales咧，在那边还少sale就死到够够力了。其实去到那边压力会更大，因为我知道自己不是这样的人材，去到那边可能会搞垮那边的业绩。

今天听到了，人生最值钱的就是"爱"，而不是富裕，我很赞同，还有就是就算没有了，但起码已经留下一个不会褪色的爱给你。但如果是一个遗憾的爱，那是该珍惜曾经拥有或是宁愿不曾拥有? 明天会更好，但哪怕没有明天。

其实到现在还在疑惑着一件事，但又不敢面对，都不懂该怎么好 >..<

Last day Of FEB, I've discovered alot

Haha, it is unbelievable, I've got 4 sales today, I have just discovered that my sale will only goes high at the end of month, otherwise it is low, really funny. I've started to worry about my commission and salary, it is affected by my friends, those X-staff and currently working's staff, because most of them have known ours problem, some of them advised me to change reseller, and some of them advised me to argue for my unfair commission. I really dunno which is the best solution for me, is either change reseller, argue for my commission or resign. Haiz, it is really embarrassing, but regardless of whatever happens, i have to solve this as soon as possible, my salary, my commission, and also my "problem"....

I have read the newspaper this morning, this is because something it is really attracted me, Tsunami, it has landed on this world again. This really bring me to believe that Doomsday is near, it's really near, but I dunno why the social still take this as nothing, always contend for hegemony, can't they take this opportunity before the Doomsday is landed to get along with all the members, have a great time with them. Haiz, dun regret what you have done now in the future~

I've just read my friend's note, then I discovered that I dunno the differences between love and like

I have just discovered that someone has the same problem with me, I know what you are suffering now, try not to be alone, u can find your friends and chat with them, then u will get better

27/2/2010

不懂几时才能告诉她我要换reseller，很想她快点来，可是又等待着另一边的回复，希望你可以带给我好消息。最近振业跟她翻脸了，不懂他搞到怎样了。我已经开始放弃了，不要再管她，只是坐在那边，等人来就够了。

不懂为什么每天一到这个时候心就开始不舒服，好像有东西闷在里面，总之就是辛苦，不懂是好还是不好的征眺，但是又不懂是怎么一回事，所以就不去理会，希望这一种感觉可以渐渐地消失~


最近都偷懒，去做工前或放工后就去alpha angle找yen, leroy, hong khai 他们，然后才去做工，因为他们全部都在那边，加上全部都是华人，不像我那边，所以就去他们那边消耗一下时间，但我很开心。

我快乐的来源

大家可能都不知道我在想什么，甚至有时候连我也不懂自己在想什么。很多人都说我乱乱想，觉得我很多余，可是这一切都不是我所能控制的，其实我也不想这样。之前你们每天都说我不想回家，我却告诉你们因为很闷，现在我发觉其实不是，而是我在家找不到那种快乐，而跟你们在一起，我却能得到很多快乐，每当我跟你们在一起的时候，我都很珍惜那每一分每一秒，就算你们拿我来开玩笑我也无所谓，我都很开心，因为我知道我回家后就得不到这种快乐了，只有跟你们在一起的时候我才不会有时间想东西。

其实我很想去关心每一位朋友，尤其是那一些不开心的，因为我知道当一个人不开心时，得到朋友的关心和安慰可以胜过一切。可能我不懂如何去关心朋友，可能已经是过度关心，而换来的不是帮助，可能是厌恶，甚至是责怪，去关心他们是因为不想看到我身边有任何一个人忧愁。不知道为什么最近我的心很不舒服，甚至有时还会有些呼吸急速或不顺。

如果我从来没有开始过，那有多好。如果这世界上没有伤心，只有快乐，那该有多好，
如果这只是会在梦境中出现，那我宁愿逗留在那个梦境里，就算是醒不来也无所谓，在虚幻梦境里可能可以使我更开心。

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最近俊毅都在计划旅行的事，我真的很希望可以再跟那班朋友旅行多一次，想到就很开心，希望大家都可以参与，俊毅是想要那些 NS 和之前没有参与 PANGKOR 的朋友一起去，我想你们大概都没问题罢~

good solution

Try not to worry too much about anything. Worry makes things worse.

Stop telling yourself you are miserable. Instead tell yourself you are happy.

You are your own worst critic. Don’t judge yourself too harshly. If you screwed up, accept it and do something to set it right or try not to follow the same behavioural pattern again.

Find something in you to like, then hold on to that, and remind yourself you are a worthwhile human being, and all that you now face will also have to pass.

Don’t let fear get in the way of what you want to do or try. Remember FEAR is just False Evidence Appearing Real. The more you feed your fear, the bigger and insurmountable it gets.

Stop worrying about what others say about you. You can’t control what people say or think. You can’t please everyone. So don’t dwell on what people say. You will just help them rob you of your power and make you weak and ineffective.

Find something to keep you busy when you sense the dark clouds controlling you – call a friend, go out for a walk, listen to upbeat music, run a marathon, have a refreshing drink of lemon tea and reach for a good book, watch your favourite sitcom and laugh till you cry.

Remember, you are responsible for your own actions and decisions. If you don’t like the way you are, make yourself over – be a different you. You can start by giving yourself a physical makeover. No one is standing in your way but you.

人生就是这样

撞撞跌跌，

爬了又爬，

为钱烦恼，

读书头痛，

做工压力 + 闷，

人生就是这样。

开始是天真，

在父母的呵护下无优无虑，

尽情玩乐，享受，

读书后~

开始烦恼，压力，

还是玩乐，可是少了。

做工后，

更烦，更闷，更压力。

烦工钱，烦顾客，

样样都要烦。

一直要搏，存钱存钱，

然后去玩，

玩完了没钱再搏，再存，又再玩。

人生有多闷，

一直做着重复的东西。

Finally got SALE ad

很久没尝试到开单的感觉了，

哈哈哈哈~

其实也没什么好开心的，

我还得追回10张单，

都不懂要怎样追，

她都傻的，以为这样容易追咩，

但我还是得追，

不然就要吃土了。

原因 :

可能真的不适合做promoter，

刚开始的时候每天跟顾客吹，

但现在不懂为什么那个嘴巴好像几斤重，

根本不想再跟顾客吹了，

可能是吹到累了。

我就是这样，

有什么讲什么，

ok 就 ok，不ok 就不 ok，

不可以乱讲，

因为一些顾客很野蛮，

会打电话来骂。

宁愿开少点单都好过中骂。

Thx God Blessing,
Thx hong khai's teaching~
hong khai u can go P1 HQ give training for juniors ad

People, pls do pray the GOD~

What the hell is it,

No sale no talk,

demand for leave also can't,

it is only 1 day, not 1 week.

I have already 5 days no sales,

they always say it is depend on luck and i'm lack of luck,

cheat me, they must got their skills, haha~

she started to treat me not good as before,

how come nowaday lot of people are realism,

can't u don't look the sales is so important.

I'm wondering with my salary now,

don't know who is going to pay my salary,

That guy don't wan bother us,

he always say will check for us,

but never reply me,

1 day, 2 days i keep waiting,

he still not reply yet.

How can u guy treat your employee like that,

who you think we are,

your servant is it ?

we have our right to gain our salary on time,

and you ain't suppose to treat us like that,

I'm not your servant,

pay me my salary as soon as possible~

And U don't think i'm stupid,

give me such low commision,

please can you be fair,

i know sometime you treat your employee so good,

but sometime you never think about us,

u are just focus on 1 thing,

people who know u and they will know what is it.

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Just now my dad come back and he told me that,

his sifu said there will be a more serious diseases which serious than H1N1

will land on this world.

Started from now, 

people please do pray the God,

Guan Yin, Jesus, ..........

Save the world, save the earth, save our life...

~man can conquer nature~

I Hate U, but I love u because u give me money

I hate "U",

U make me busy,

U make me scolded by lot of ppl,

U burden me a lot,

U afflict me a lot,
U are so so so troublesome,
I want to leave U as soon as possible,
U never bring any happiness to me,
because of U,
I could not spend my time to my family and my friends,
because of U,
I get hurt so much.
because of U,
I've lost my sales.
U are stupid,
useless,
I hate U.

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Yeah~
Tomorrow no need to rush two places at the same day,
because one of the booth have been closed,
haha, but I have to go ampang park. = =''
I wish to go those places where got a lot of friends and customers,
I need sales~
No sale no money~ >.<

这样你会开心吗?

<不愉快的事属于折磨吗? 是>

不愉快的事总是折腾着我，

让我忧郁，让我伤心

<坚持和努力会给自己带来快乐和成功吗? 会>

我的坚持给我带来了快乐和成功，

只要你觉得那是对的，值得的，

这样你就该坚持。

<生活环境会给你造成影响吗? 会>

在一个不开心的环境下生活，

这样你会有可能开心吗，

当然不，反而造成领一种痛苦。

<朋友可以做一辈子吗? 不肯定>

这谁能断定，

搞不好有一天~~~

所以乘机把握时间，

好好与他们相处，

珍惜所拥有的，

互相礼让，

以笑容对待对方，

时常一起出去。

如果一天，你失去了他们，

或他们失去了你，

那后悔也来不及，

你还能做些什么呢?

things that i always tell myself i must do, but~

i always tell myself i must be tough~

i always tell myself i must be patient~

i always tell myself i must be happy~

i always tell myself i must be chuffed~

i always tell myself i must forget her~

but

all such thing i cant do it,

i try to be tough,

but when i'm suffering something which is very afflictive,

and that time i will be crumple.

i try to be patient,

but i when i meet something which make me distraught,

then i will abreact at somewhere which is no people.

Sometime i try to be happy,

but i cant do it, sometime it is tough for me,

especially when i see those victims who suffering the grief,
beside, there were still a lot of thing make me unhappy.

i try to be chuffed,

but i always think of something which is unnecessary,

i think too superabundance, 杞人忧天

ppl always say天塌下来当被盖，

but i cant do it.

i try to forgot her,

but it should take a long time,

maybe 5 or 6 months or goes to 1 year.

it is really difficult to forgot someone.

~不能再酱下去了~

不想要再这样下去了，

再这样下去真的不行，

你瘦了不好看，

而且还会伤害到你。

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我累了，你也累了

我要休息了，

我要自我软禁，

我不要再出门。

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可怜的你，

我不忍心再看你这样下去了，

你也是时候该休息了。

心爱的

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很抱歉，

肥肥胖胖的你，

如今变得瘦骨如柴，

对不起，让你受苦了

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钱包

~感觉~

~一种莫名其妙的感觉~

难以形容

~思念~

~纳闷~

~无所事事~

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不喜欢这种感觉

~今天很不愉快~

Good Bye

~再见~

3个月后才能见到你

~要照顾自己~