things that i always tell myself i must do, but~

i always tell myself i must be tough~

i always tell myself i must be patient~

i always tell myself i must be happy~

i always tell myself i must be chuffed~

i always tell myself i must forget her~

but

all such thing i cant do it,

i try to be tough,

but when i'm suffering something which is very afflictive,

and that time i will be crumple.

i try to be patient,

but i when i meet something which make me distraught,

then i will abreact at somewhere which is no people.

Sometime i try to be happy,

but i cant do it, sometime it is tough for me,

especially when i see those victims who suffering the grief,
beside, there were still a lot of thing make me unhappy.

i try to be chuffed,

but i always think of something which is unnecessary,

i think too superabundance, 杞人忧天

ppl always say天塌下来当被盖，

but i cant do it.

i try to forgot her,

but it should take a long time,

maybe 5 or 6 months or goes to 1 year.

it is really difficult to forgot someone.